I have a problem with judging myself. I feel guilt, shame, and embarrassment almost more strongly than positive emotions. I hate being annoying, weak, and dramatic. I hate being a burden. I hate being needy. I hate having to rely on someone else. I hate not being able to control myself. I hate being inconsiderate. I hate making things a bigger deal than they are.
I also hate how much I beat myself up over those things. I hate how mad I get at myself for them. How easily I become disappointed in myself. I go from being mad at myself for doing something embarrassing, to being upset about how mad I am about the thing I’m not proud of.
It’s a vicious cycle. But it’s not like I’m in a permanent state of hating myself. I just can be a wee bit harsh sometimes. And I need to work on that, because it’s a terribly unattractive trait.